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For life goes not crude nor tarries with yesterday.
Where were you when on that awful day?
Until ten years ago, during my lifetime at least, that dispute midpoint always pertained to the day the shots rang out and killed Kennedy; his presidency the seeming digit of refreshed and restored hope to a mortals that had been bruised, bloodied and battered by two successive World Wars.
All those lives lost.
All those sons and daughters, fathers, mothers, brothers and sisters.
Some parched alive even.
And, then, a occure at rebirth.
Until shots rang out from a grassy hummock and killed it.
On the day that John F. Kennedy was killed, ironically, I was the exact same age and in the exact alike level as my son was on the day that the Twin Towers fell ten years ago. But all those many years earlier I was sitting and playing with Play Doh on a tiny worn and wooden desk. How do I remember that? I don’t know. I do, however, remember the Dominican sisters of Saint Aloysius lining us all up, one by one, as some took our hands while others reached for their structure handkerchiefs pulling them out from some puzzle latent niche unbefitting the paunch of their dark and white habits.
Never showing outright emotion, those nuns would quickly, almost secretly, wipe the tears away from their retain eyes as they called us, one by one, to train up in the bob of the classroom. I met my sister as the classes piled out into the hallway and we headed out to the parking lot led by another eremite who had no intention of holding her maul back. Her crying kept us all stillness in our concern.
And then I remember my mother silently sobbing the complete instance she drove all of us back home.
Back to the accommodation that had oil portraits of all four of her offspring and one of President Kennedy himself unresolved in our living room. As if he were somehow blood of our blood.
John Kennedy took a nook of honor alongside her issue on the living room walls while the portrait of the Pope hung in a less prestigious calling in the dining one.
And so was the pecking behest in my Irish Catholic household.
Where were you when that dreadful day happened?
That expired inquiry now gains new meaning as I vacillate any one of us commit ever reckon to put Kennedy to that issue again.
Terror and transfiguration changed all that.
A scarcely over ten years ago we had only equitable moved here to Virginia from New York. I didn’t want to come.
My connubial was in a state of devolving disrepair and shambles and I knew it was over. After twenty object years.
Over. I knew practically no one in this town either drop my then husband’s full family.
Who couldn’t exactly ever cotton to the Irish sassy lassy blonde from New York who stole the pith of their homeboy.
Nope, they could barely tolerate me, bless their hearts.
And if you’re from the South you understand exactly what the last share of that sentence means.
I was lonely and scared and had the wonderful capacity and opportunity of telling that to my boon partner Kathleen each and every day as we had fallen into that duplicate level of daily early morning phone talk routine.
I’d already dropped my son at his kindergarten that September 11 morning and would come home to christen Kath, as usual, so that we could reverie together and tactic what I would do when I would finally establish a congeal of balls and stop and we’d prattle of what she would do if she marked to go back to work. Yup, the usual. Mostly.
That day though, item not usual. Her obtain husband, Pete, whose posses profession took him into the Twin Towers daily hadn’t recent in to the City on that day because he’d had an guise breakfast meeting to attend.
So we talked about that.
And how she hoped he might framework there and find a new position at his old company.
I can remember that particular phone dub and the ensuing events if it were yesterday.
I was sitting on my son’s bed and had ‘Good Morning America’ on the television in the background.
We were words about nothing, she and I. Just nothing. As girlfriends on the phone often do. And, then, I spied, out of the recess of my eye, an explosion producing plumes of smoke and a huge kindle inception to engulf that boon tower. I sat transfixed to the television.
I stammered and stumbled off the boy’s bed and shakily told Kath to turn on her tv. I was pacing and I was POSITIVE that some tame feature commander MUST hold had a heart inception and tragically, mistakenly, misplaced master or even his life before slumping in his cockpit and careening into that building. I mean, what fresh guide could there be? We sat in stunned silence, Kath on her latter and I on mine, and all I could hear above Peter Jennings overwrought voice was our retain noiseless breathing on the phone.
We verbal naught to one another. Nothing. This circumstance literally.
Until she whispered, “that’s Pete’s building. ”
And, then, the unthinkable.
The hindmost plane.
The second tower.
I don’t remember if we even verbal goodbye to one another. All I could think of at that moment was my son.
And as my hold mother had done decades earlier, I gathered my wits and my keys and signal to go and grab him from his school. Grab him and clutch him familiar as could be.
Our mortals was beneath attack. The Pentagon had not yet been hit and Todd Beamer and those heros hadn’t yet “rolled” and yet, intuitively, instinctively, I knew I had to be with my boy.
At the moment that I opened my model door to leave, another fellow whose son attended the alike school, pulled up in govern of my accommodation and motioned to me.
” C’mon El, let’s go!”
I jumped in the passenger seat and we didn’t hold to gibber a device to one another. The pain was palpable.
I was shaking. She was smoking. And then I started to cry.
And, then, so did she.
My kernel was breaking as I wondered if my first partner from big school, my pith sister Patty, had perished in her aegis in the first tower. Patty’s mother is the only ‘grandmother’ my son has ever known.
My own mother had passed well before my bloke was born.
His dad’s mother was not involved.
To this day he still refers to Patty’s mom as ‘Nana,’ and to this day ‘Nana’ still sends him a twenty dollar bill every Christmas.
I wondered if Ava’s husband Michael was in his office in the hindmost tower that morning. I am the godmother to their youngeset daughter Paige.
My extended families.
And, then, there were the friends.
I knew midpoint the absolute Cantor bond trading floor. After having spent twenty years trading commodities on Wall Street, I knew a pile of folks posting buy/sells in that building. Did they survive? Were they alive? Were their families watching these horrific scenes artifice out the equivalent routine I had been watching? I midpoint couldn’t plumb the worry.
The panic. The terror.
I couldn’t perceive terrorists.
Driving halfway too slowly to the school, we sat, Dina and I stunned, sniffling, reveling, remembering (she’s from New York as well) until we took a left off the paramount drag and drove up in sway of Broad Bay Manor. I don’t notice why, but we hadn’t expected what we saw. There, in the parking mass was a throng of parents waiting for their tiny children too. Waiting in a car string that snaked around the flawless building. Twice.
All these parents coming to regain their precious ones.
We were all doing the duplicate thing that my retain mother had done all those many years ago when innocence shattered shook this country.
I look around for my son.
I notice the striking gloomy of the sky.
The sun bright so open it harm my eyes.
The air so concise and clean, not yet filled with the coming dread.
It didn’t equal up, the events I’d fair witnessed and the partly Divine perfection of the day.
It didn’t go together. Maybe it wasn’t real? Maybe it didn’t befall after all? Maybe I would wake up and inert be in a crappy married but wouldn’t obtain to wonder if connections I knew and loved had died without warning.
And it was then, waiting in what seemed to be an interminable car line, that all of a sudden a song from Grayson’s infancy began to play, over and over and over again in my head.
See, my son was not a interest sleeper as a bitty baby.
I was forced to establish some grade of soothing and nightly ritual and procedure to be able to lull him into any quality of slumber, a ritual that once worked through moreover worked well into his toddler years.
A allocation of that ritual was playing the duplicate harmonization cassette to and for him night after night after night.
For years and years and years.
His warmth was Pavlovian.
Apparently mine was imprinted.
Because on that euphonious cassette was a poem put to song, the lyrics or lines written by the peaceful, abstract and otherworldly poet Kahlil Gibran.
The utterance of that song now stuck singing out in my head as if they were being piped in by a Mothership seafaring somewhere far, far in the heavens above.
I couldn’t falter them. I couldn’t discontinue them. Louder and louder. Competing with my extremely core trying to procure my flawless attention.
‘Your young are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life’s desire for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you. ”
We inch up a segment closer to the exit door of the school. I imagine I hear Dina gossip item about the radio recounting kin jumping from the upper floors of the towers.
They are jumping to their deaths, hustings that sliver of hope of survival as opposed to surely perishing by fire.
People are jumping. They are creation choices about the practice in which they will, in all likelihood, die.
Others on the streets unbefitting monitoring unimaginable horror.
I portrayal these images in my mind’s eye but can’t concentrate because that music, those poetic speech from Kibran retain competing. They effectively steep the outer din.
“You may consign them your love but not your thoughts,
For they retain their hold thoughts.
You may dwelling their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the dwelling of tomorrow,
which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them,
but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not ignorant nor tarries with yesterday.
I see him. I finally see him. My boy.
His meagre blonde probe pops up every once in awhile bobbing between the two taller boys that are sandwiching him. He looks so happy.
He looks so little.
He looks around.
And he sees me.
And he waves.
Like rarely boys who see their mother’s in sway of them often do. And I motion back. Although I can’t really make him out now more than a wavy plot since the tears in my eyes, tears of gratitude, tears of bliss at seeing him, tears of heartbreaking sadness and grief all converge and well up and deter me from really seeing anything, at all, clearly.
I stroke like I might not be able to see anything clearly ever again.
The car continues to creep a segment additional and the epiphany occurs.
And it sounds impartial like the last lines of that Kibran poem:
“You are the bows from which your children
as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the document upon the trajectory of the infinite,
and He bends you with His might
that His arrows may go quick and far.
Let your bending in the archer’s workman be for gladness;
For even as He loves the indicator that flies,
so He loves further the fawn that is stable.
Only feelings survives.
And Patty did too. After the birth of her third teenager and unable to dodder that development weight, she’d been attending a Weight Watchers meeting in shorten Manhattan when the tragedies took place.
She remembers leaving the weigh in to run back to her office because she’d left her purse there.
A few feet out that Weight Watcher’s door some stranger rancid her around and told her to “run for her life.
” She did.
And was safe.
Only love survives.
And Michael did too. He, like Kathleen’s husband Peter, had a meeting frontage his office that morning and although he’d elapsed back to the towers, he’d been able to achieve out of Manhattan and eventually make it home safely as well.
Only love survives.
The Cantor Fitzgerald traders did not.
Thousands of responders did not.
All those different element passengers did not.
“For even as He loves the thorn that flies, so He loves also the fawn that is stable.
Because, only heart survives.
Because our spirits are inextinguishable.
The sadness, the loss, the hunger for tranquillity consign languish and die.
Love and our spirits survive.
That is not a prayer. It is a promise.
Where were you on that dreadful day?
Where was I?
No, I wasn’t speech to Kathleen on the phone or watching Peter Jennings on tv. I wasn’t with Dina driving down Great Neck Road or ballot up my oblivious son from school. I wasn’t worrying and wondering about Patty, Peter, Michael or all the many others I knew working inside those two towers.
I was enlightenment firsthand that only heart survives and that our spirits are inextinguishable.
I can only hope that many, many, many others retain learned that identical same lecture since that same day as well.
Because armed with that knowledge, rebirth can never ever be shot and killed again.