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For life goes not illiterate nor tarries with yesterday.
Where were you when on that dreadful day?
Until ten years ago, during my lifetime at least, that debate nearly always pertained to the day the shots rang out and killed Kennedy; his presidency the seeming figure of refreshed and restored hope to a nation that had been bruised, bloodied and battered by two later World Wars.
All those lives lost.
All those sons and daughters, fathers, mothers, brothers and sisters.
Some parched alive even.
And, then, a occure at rebirth.
Until shots rang out from a grassy elevation and killed it.
On the day that John F. Kennedy was killed, ironically, I was the exact alike age and in the exact same superiority as my son was on the day that the Twin Towers fell ten years ago. But all those many years earlier I was sitting and playing with Play Doh on a tiny worn and wooden desk. How do I remember that? I don’t know. I do, however, remember the Dominican sisters of Saint Aloysius filling us all up, one by one, as some took our hands while others reached for their material handkerchiefs pulling them out from some puzzle quiescent vocation under the stomach of their threatening and white habits.
Never showing outright emotion, those nuns would quickly, nearly secretly, wipe the tears away from their retain eyes as they called us, one by one, to succession up in the bob of the classroom. I met my sister as the classes piled out into the hallway and we headed out to the parking pile led by another recluse who had no intention of holding her molest back. Her crying kept us all peace in our concern.
And then I remember my mother silently sobbing the complete circumstance she drove all of us back home.
Back to the dwelling that had oil portraits of all four of her offspring and one of President Kennedy himself uncertain in our living room. As if he were somehow blood of our blood.
John Kennedy took a cubby-hole of honor alongside her spawn on the living room walls while the portrait of the Pope hung in a less prestigious calling in the dining one.
And so was the pecking command in my Irish Catholic household.
Where were you when that dreadful day happened?
That lapsed inquiry now gains new meaning as I suspect any one of us bequeath ever suppose to put Kennedy to that debate again.
Terror and transfiguration changed all that.
A seldom over ten years ago we had only unbiased moved here to Virginia from New York. I didn’t absence to come.
My marital was in a province of devolving disrepair and shambles and I knew it was over. After twenty item years.
Over. I knew practically no one in this town either delete my then husband’s whole family.
Who couldn’t exactly ever cotton to the Irish sassy lassy blonde from New York who stole the kernel of their homeboy.
Nope, they could barely tolerate me, bless their hearts.
And if you’re from the South you sense exactly what the last portion of that sentence means.
I was lonely and scared and had the wonderful flair and opportunity of telling that to my top individual Kathleen each and every day as we had fallen into that alike sort of daily early morning phone speak routine.
I’d already dropped my son at his kindergarten that September 11 morning and would come home to dub Kath, as usual, so that we could wish together and expedient what I would do when I would finally grow a jell of balls and cease and we’d talk of what she would do if she clear to go back to work. Yup, the usual. Mostly.
That day though, device not usual. Her keep husband, Pete, whose posses career took him into the Twin Towers daily hadn’t ended in to the City on that day because he’d had an frontage breakfast meeting to attend.
So we talked about that.
And how she hoped he might lattice there and find a new class at his obsolete company.
I can remember that particular phone designate and the ensuing events if it were yesterday.
I was sitting on my son’s bed and had ‘Good Morning America’ on the television in the background.
We were conversation about nothing, she and I. Just nothing. As girlfriends on the phone often do. And, then, I spied, out of the recess of my eye, an explosion producing plumes of smoke and a gigantic ignite beginning to engulf that finest tower. I sat transfixed to the television.
I stammered and stumbled off the boy’s bed and shakily told Kath to turn on her tv. I was pacing and I was POSITIVE that some private aspect co-pilot MUST posses had a core start and tragically, mistakenly, gone domesticate or even his life before slumping in his cockpit and careening into that building. I mean, what more interpretation could there be? We sat in stunned silence, Kath on her final and I on mine, and all I could hear above Peter Jennings rigid voice was our have quiet breathing on the phone.
We spoken nothing to one another. Nothing. This situation literally.
Until she whispered, “that’s Pete’s building. ”
And, then, the unthinkable.
The end plane.
The later tower.
I don’t remember if we even spoken goodbye to one another. All I could conjecture of at that moment was my son.
And as my hold mother had done decades earlier, I gathered my wits and my keys and striking to go and take him from his school. Grab him and clutch him known as could be.
Our people was below attack. The Pentagon had not yet been hit and Todd Beamer and those heros hadn’t yet “rolled” and yet, intuitively, instinctively, I knew I had to be with my boy.
At the moment that I opened my sway door to leave, another person whose son attended the corresponding school, pulled up in bob of my abode and motioned to me.
” C’mon El, let’s go!”
I jumped in the passenger seat and we didn’t hold to gossip a article to one another. The pain was palpable.
I was shaking. She was smoking. And then I started to cry.
And, then, so did she.
My kernel was breaking as I wondered if my first person from lanky school, my kernel sister Patty, had perished in her help in the peak tower. Patty’s mother is the only ‘grandmother’ my son has ever known.
My keep mother had passed well before my man was born.
His dad’s mother was not involved.
To this day he dormant refers to Patty’s mom as ‘Nana,’ and to this day ‘Nana’ torpid sends him a twenty dollar pamphlet every Christmas.
I wondered if Ava’s husband Michael was in his office in the second tower that morning. I am the godmother to their youngeset daughter Paige.
My extended families.
And, then, there were the friends.
I knew partly the absolute Cantor affirmation trading floor. After having spent twenty years trading commodities on Wall Street, I knew a stack of people posting buy/sells in that building. Did they survive? Were they alive? Were their families watching these horrific scenes machination out the corresponding routine I had been watching? I almost couldn’t perceive the worry.
The panic. The terror.
I couldn’t grasp terrorists.
Driving midpoint too slowly to the school, we sat, Dina and I stunned, sniffling, reveling, remembering (she’s from New York as well) until we took a left off the main drag and drove up in surpass of Broad Bay Manor. I don’t recognize why, but we hadn’t expected what we saw. There, in the parking mound was a throng of parents waiting for their tiny issue too. Waiting in a car row that snaked around the perfect building. Twice.
All these parents coming to regain their precious ones.
We were all doing the identical article that my hold mother had done all those many years ago when innocence shattered shook this country.
I look around for my son.
I command the recognizeable miserable of the sky.
The sun lustrous so flexible it misuse my eyes.
The melody so concise and clean, not yet filled with the coming dread.
It didn’t equal up, the events I’d logical witnessed and the almost Divine perfection of the day.
It didn’t go together. Maybe it wasn’t real? Maybe it didn’t befall after all? Maybe I would wake up and torpid be in a crappy conjugal but wouldn’t own to wonder if kinsfolk I knew and loved had died without warning.
And it was then, waiting in what seemed to be an interminable car line, that all of a sudden a song from Grayson’s infancy began to play, over and over and over again in my head.
See, my son was not a good sleeper as a bitty baby.
I was forced to prosper some sort of soothing and nightly ritual and practice to be able to lull him into any sort of slumber, a ritual that once worked through besides worked well into his toddler years.
A slice of that ritual was playing the twin rhythm cassette to and for him night after night after night.
For years and years and years.
His sentiment was Pavlovian.
Apparently mine was imprinted.
Because on that lyrical cassette was a poem put to song, the lyrics or lines written by the peaceful, abstruse and otherworldly poet Kahlil Gibran.
The words of that song now stuck singing out in my commander as if they were being piped in by a Mothership marine somewhere far, far in the heavens above.
I couldn’t shake them. I couldn’t cease them. Louder and louder. Competing with my very pith trying to get my flawless attention.
‘Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life’s craving for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you. ”
We inch up a crumb closer to the exit door of the school. I assume I hear Dina prattle object about the radio recounting relatives jumping from the upper floors of the towers.
They are jumping to their deaths, selection that sliver of hope of survival as opposed to surely perishing by fire.
People are jumping. They are forming choices about the procedure in which they will, in all likelihood, die.
Others on the streets under watch unimaginable horror.
I drawing these images in my mind’s eye but can’t concentrate because that music, those poetic speech from Kibran have competing. They effectively saturate the outer din.
“You may give them your emotions but not your thoughts,
For they keep their obtain thoughts.
You may habitat their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the quarters of tomorrow,
which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them,
but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not ignorant nor tarries with yesterday.
I see him. I finally see him. My boy.
His minor blonde head pops up every once in awhile bobbing between the two taller boys that are sandwiching him. He looks so happy.
He looks so little.
He looks around.
And he sees me.
And he waves.
Like infrequently boys who see their mother’s in front of them often do. And I gesticulate back. Although I can’t really make him out now further than a wavy structure since the tears in my eyes, tears of gratitude, tears of exaltation at seeing him, tears of heartbreaking sadness and grief all converge and well up and prevent me from really seeing anything, at all, clearly.
I touch like I might not be able to see anything distinctly ever again.
The car continues to creep a bit fresh and the epiphany occurs.
And it sounds reasonable like the last lines of that Kibran poem:
“You are the bows from which your children
as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the document upon the orbit of the infinite,
and He bends you with His might
that His arrows may go fast and far.
Let your bending in the archer’s navvy be for gladness;
For even as He loves the bodkin that flies,
so He loves besides the kowtow that is stable.
Only feelings survives.
And Patty did too. After the birth of her third adolescent and unable to totter that incubation weight, she’d been attending a Weight Watchers meeting in decrease Manhattan when the tragedies took place.
She remembers leaving the weigh in to run back to her office because she’d left her purse there.
A few feet out that Weight Watcher’s door some stranger sour her around and told her to “run for her life.
” She did.
And was safe.
Only heart survives.
And Michael did too. He, like Kathleen’s husband Peter, had a meeting outside his office that morning and although he’d elapsed back to the towers, he’d been able to gain out of Manhattan and eventually make it home safely as well.
Only passion survives.
The Cantor Fitzgerald traders did not.
Thousands of responders did not.
All those different angle passengers did not.
“For even as He loves the pointer that flies, so He loves also the kneel that is stable.
Because, only feelings survives.
Because our spirits are inextinguishable.
The sadness, the loss, the yearning for quiet consign languish and die.
Love and our spirits survive.
That is not a prayer. It is a promise.
Where were you on that dreadful day?
Where was I?
No, I wasn’t speaking to Kathleen on the phone or watching Peter Jennings on tv. I wasn’t with Dina driving down Great Neck Road or poll up my oblivious son from school. I wasn’t worrying and wondering about Patty, Peter, Michael or all the many others I knew working inside those two towers.
I was education firsthand that only feelings survives and that our spirits are inextinguishable.
I can only hope that many, many, many others have learned that corresponding same lecture since that alike day as well.
Because armed with that knowledge, rebirth can never ever be shot and killed again.